Friday, October 23, 2009

An epic tale...

Last night, my family plus my aunt from China went to see Mao's Last Dancer. I was expecting an epic tale but like many film critics I was left feeling underwhelmed...

My father's thoughts were he (Li Cunxin) hadn't seen pain, he hadn't felt the immense hunger, terror, sadness, fear and love for his family...and that he was extremely lucky...and look where he is now...very successful- a rich broker...what a great outcome for the rest of the Chinese population.

The thing that bothers me most was that he left his family to feed themselves - 6 brothers and his hard-working and extremely poverty-stricken parents...he defected because he fell in love with some woman in 3 months' time. He defected because he liked the freedom "dancing disco in nightclubs" he chose lust (not love because they were clearly imcompatible as he later found out) and freedom over his family's well-being, love, care....what a great son....

I would never do that, leave my family. Obviously, his parents and brothers would have been extremely proud of his success and forgiven him and now the rest of the world has formed a different opinion.

I am glad Westerners see the same as I. The following is a link to a SMH movie review

I learnt that I am more Western than Eastern now and that I need to find my roots not because I feel guilty for loosing them but because I am proud of who I am and what our culture stands for. For that I think a round of applause is necessary.

Obviously, Li doesn't require any luck because the world is his at the moment but I feel for all the other Chinese people who have suffered so greatly that no one words can ever be expressed but what we all keep are the memories. These memories will never be forgotten. These memories will never be lost. These memories will always remind us of how strong, determined and hard-working we are.

With that, I am signing out to reseek my beautiful Chinese traditions, beliefs and culture...and even find my mother and father right now so I can give them a hug.


Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Catching up with the past....

So today I'm catching up with the past...although I have to admit I am and have always been scared of change...I don't think I am a person who likes to be revisited by things that I rather forget.

The times where there was so much uncertainty, confusion and boredom and often the "what the hell am I doing right now?"

So I think today is the day where I have a meet and there are going to be those many awkward comments and looks (the looks will be from me no doubt) but no fear I will remain composed and dignified (like always).

(I will let you in on the outcome....but be prepared for the worse and perhaps the not so worse)

Taking my pen and notebook...xE

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Not sure Why...

Not exactly sure why I started or created this blog...perhaps it's because I'm really bored right now and I am procrastinating so much. Which I thought I would have learnt from lesson since the HSC....and many exams and assignments later...I'm still the same...

Why do we never learn from our silly flaws?? And there's no Lol after that sentence because for once I'm not laughing...and this is a serious matter because I'm a happy almost makes me sick least I'm not Elle Woods...although our names are similar....hahaha no way on earth I could be a barrister...perhaps a solictor....maybe it's time for a career change!!

But dealing in law doesn't sound all too exciting so if I was to have a career change, I must choose something much more exciting and less stress....which doesn't sound like any job that exists!!!!

And don't worry, I won't be sitting around home, doing nothing but being a couch potato...I would drive myself insane because of the lack of brain activity...hey! I'm not saying I'm a genius but my brain needs to be used...otherwise it will rot.....for sure

So I need to find something to do for the next 20 mins...I have things to do...but why I don't want to do them is strange....oh dear.....let's hope for something more exciting tomorrow....

Signing out! Peace and some love....and some hate!